I have lost my dreams. I have endured drug addiction. I have lived in atheism. I evolved to hate a God I did not know.
But then… I was saved.
Originally born in England, I immigrated to the United States at the age of sixteen with just my father. In England I attended a Roman Catholic school that was somewhat forceful in its religious applications. Being a very active person, I loved to play soccer and rugby. My journey with atheism began at a young age as I was told that I was not allowed to play sports unless I took religious studies by our school headmaster. It was this forceful application that gave me a distaste towards Jesus and, shortly thereafter, complete expulsion from my heart.
I have welcomed atheism.
Life within high school in Florida was seemingly normal. Utilizing my English accent, often mistaken for Australian, to garner a little high school popularity. Drugs were present throughout my teenage years and a default source of escapism.
I have tasted drug addiction.
Struggling to succeed in the immigration process, were it not for a very close family, I would have been homeless. In fact, I have slept in acquaintances back rooms more times than I can count. I can specifically remember sleeping in a building behind a small church that wasn’t completely built as well as having to clean out a ransacked house riddled with insects just so I could live in it.
I have escaped homelessness.
My life was given to Jesus during the Brownsville Revival. In all honesty, I was only going to the church service because of a girl I really liked (now, my wife.. yay for me!). I gave my heart to Christ in a very emotional manner. I knew something was missing in my life. However, I confess that I just didn’t have a good logical reason as to WHY I believed in Jesus, I just knew that I did and something had changed in me.
I genuinely tried to find drugs days before my salvation, and somehow (this had never happened before) all of my ‘dealer friends’ had absolutely no drugs to use for themselves, let alone sell to me.
Fast forward a little bit, and I am a touring vocalist in a Christian rock band. I had finally found what I wanted to do with my life. I got to pray with people, spread the love of Christ in a truly genuine manner and sing to my hearts content. We were garnering more and more success and suddenly, it was destroyed as was I.
I have seen my dreams be stolen away.
To this day, I don’t listen to the music I wrote, the songs I sang, for my heart is still broken in that area.
I am a software engineer and I write mobile applications. I am very blessed in my job and it definitely challenges the problem solving parts of your mind. But then.. I felt like I was doing nothing for the kingdom of the Creator I love so much.
“Why not start a YouTube channel and do some blogs?”
So I did and here I go. I don’t honestly know what God’s plan is for my life, all I know is, I am supremely blessed.
As you can see from the bold sentences above, I’ve been through a fair share and that is just a drop in the bucket of my life.
I can honestly say now that my motivation is to honor Jesus and put out a message that we as Christians have to do a much much much better job of illustrating the love of Christ. We must learn to defend our faith more wisely but also, do it with love otherwise, what’s the point?
I love the apologetic defense of the Christian faith and, thus, truly enjoy the teachings of individuals like Ravi Zacharias, Nabeel Qureshi, Frank Turek and Sean McDowell to name a few. I try to bring that in my videos and blogs.
I thank you, so very much, for taking the time to visit me and feel free to reach out to me should you need prayer or if I can be of servitude to you whatsoever.
God bless and MAD LUV!!